Woke up at 7.20am today....got ready for school...strolled to school listening to music..hmm..have yet to get a present for yu..no time..im in a rather bad mood now...I don't wish to confide in anyone...dun wan to bother people..if I confide in others..i dun want them to say im complaining and commenting on things...my parents...these few days..im reluctant to talk to them...find it very difficult to communicate with them..my mum always assume this and that..hardly sparing a thought for me..I always say im sorry..I always say im wrong..she scolds me when I do something wrong...but I cannot say anything when she herself does it...when I do..I can hardly think of what will happen...my dad..caught up with his work...dun wan to talk to him and make him feel bad that his daughter has so much unhappiness...who else is there..perhaps im really not an amiable girl...im sour and bitter...I don't know why...but I cannot accept a lot of things..maybe its time to change my perception of matters...sometimes..I wish people would understand that things which I comment and lament on are things which my parent can't accept..and perhaps I was brought up in this family..and im innate to it..so I seek understanding from you guys...you know who you are...I just hate bothering people..I have this habit of thinking that I always make others unhappy..and because of this habit..I can actually make people feel irritated..while I indeed feel bad...it is not my intention to do so...im tired..really tired..but still, looking forward to my last day in this horrifying school (as I had always mentioned)..like wad mdm khong said..few more band practices and "you can get out of the band"..sounds hurtful but rather true. Im still wondering whether I will fly away and never return..never return to the past...never looking back at anything...never hoping..everytime I hope..my hopes are shattered...I wish im invisible..I can go around understanding people without having to make the extra effort...I can go around listening to people talking without having to want to share the burden with dem and being turned down..i don't wish to make my life miserable as it is now. All in all...wad's life to me?